{"id":5947,"date":"2013-09-14T01:30:36","date_gmt":"2013-09-14T01:30:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/?p=5947"},"modified":"2024-02-25T06:49:32","modified_gmt":"2024-02-25T06:49:32","slug":"under-my-skin-when-the-answer-is-no","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/believe\/under-my-skin-when-the-answer-is-no","title":{"rendered":"Under My Skin (When the answer is &#8220;NO&#8221; in the Age of Grace)"},"content":{"rendered":"<h5><span style=\"color: #778f8e;\"><span style=\"font-size: 12pt; color: #93abaa;\"><em>by Steven Gledhill<\/em><\/span> for FREEdom from MEdom Project<\/span><\/h5>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">In order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.\u00a0Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.\u00a0But he said to me,\u00a0\u201cMy grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.\u201d\u00a0Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ\u2019s power may rest on me.\u00a0That is why, for Christ\u2019s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">2 Corinthians 12:7-10 (NIV)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><a style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\" href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/02\/the-apostle-paul.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-6006\" title=\".the-apostle-paul\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/02\/the-apostle-paul-182x300.jpg?resize=182%2C300\" alt=\"\" width=\"182\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/02\/the-apostle-paul.jpg?resize=182%2C300&amp;ssl=1 182w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2012\/02\/the-apostle-paul.jpg?w=365&amp;ssl=1 365w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 182px) 100vw, 182px\" \/><\/a>This is a hard teaching; not because it&#8217;s so hard to understand, but because it is difficult to accept. As you consider the hard truth here, ask yourself, &#8220;Why did Apostle Paul ask three times that his difficulty, promoted by his spiritual adversary, be taken away?&#8221; If broken down into a one-word &#8216;yes&#8217; or &#8216;no&#8217; response, what was God&#8217;s response to Paul&#8217;s pleading the first two times? What about the third time? Who else do you know of in the Bible that pleaded that his difficulty be taken away?<\/p>\n<p>It is interesting to me that Paul is still writing his letter to the church at Corinth that just a few pages earlier indicated that his weapons for battling the enemy (addiction, oppression, spiritual adversary) are not human but spiritual. He wrote that when his finite mind wants to cast doubt from seemingly reasonable arguments against the certainty of the hope he has in relationship with Christ, he focuses on who and what he is with unwavering faith, capturing every thought opposed to such spiritual reality in order to remain loyal and committed to obedience unto God.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">We are human, but we don\u2019t wage war as humans do.\u00a0We use God\u2019s mighty weapons, not worldly weapons, to knock down the strongholds of human reasoning and to destroy false arguments.\u00a0We destroy every proud obstacle that keeps people from knowing God. We capture their rebellious thoughts and teach them to obey Christ.<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">2 Corinthians 10:3-5 (NLT)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s a great truth but then as Paul continued to write he may have become discouraged that God would not (so it seems) remove the problem that had gotten under his skin; a problem that seemed to have tormented him on some level. In his letter to the church in Rome, Paul wrote about his internal struggle that may have riddled him with pride or guilt and left him feeling miserable about himself. But as he turned over his will and life into God&#8217;s care, he experienced peace and believed he could accomplish anything God called him to do. This seems to have represented a paradox in Paul&#8217;s life.\u00a0On the one hand, Paul experienced deep insight and great revelation into the character of Christ and life in relationship with Jesus that undoubtedly humbled him, but then on the other hand battled his pride as it related to the &#8220;inside track&#8221; sort of relationship Paul had with Jesus. A paradox indeed.<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #c5c7ad; font-family: 'Book Antiqua', Palatino; font-size: 18pt;\">A Control Problem<\/span><\/p>\n<p>I admit that I tend to need, at least to some degree, to be in control. I need to be able to manage. I need for my life to be in order and for things to remain \u00a0reasonable. Yet, my recovery is built on turning over all control to God in my relationship with Christ since I know and believe that He can do for me in my life what I do not have the authority to do on my own. Yet, if I honestly and authentically believe this to be so, why do I often <em>!PANIC!<\/em> as soon as things important to me fall out of the reach of what I can &#8220;manage&#8221;? Might I suggest that &#8220;manage&#8221; is the polite word for control. If I do not want to present myself as a control person, I&#8217;ll say that I am an effective manager&#8212;sounds much better, if not impressive. I don&#8217;t have to control or fix stuff, just manage it more effectively&#8212;reasonably.<\/p>\n<p>The Apostle Paul said in his letter to the Corinthians that he had an issue with pride. It looks to me that as spiritual and insightful as Paul obviously was, he had a tendency to enjoy the approval of people. He referred to himself as conceited; a bit puffed up that the Spirit of Jesus Christ spoke to his mind with deep and profound revelation.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><strong>\u00a0<\/strong><sup id=\"en-NIV-28396\">1<\/sup>\u00a0And so it was with me, brothers and sisters. When I came to you, I did not come with eloquence or human wisdom as I proclaimed to you the testimony about God.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28397\">2<\/sup>\u00a0For I resolved to know nothing while I was with you except Jesus Christ and him crucified.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28398\">3<\/sup>\u00a0I came to you in weakness with great fear and trembling.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28399\">4<\/sup>\u00a0My message and my preaching were not with wise and persuasive words, but with a demonstration of the Spirit\u2019s power,\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28400\">5<\/sup>\u00a0so that your faith might not rest on human wisdom, but on God\u2019s power.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28401\">6<\/sup>\u00a0We do, however, speak a message of wisdom among the mature, but not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age, who are coming to nothing.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28402\">7<\/sup>\u00a0No, we declare God\u2019s wisdom, a mystery that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28403\">8<\/sup>\u00a0None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28404\">9<\/sup>\u00a0However, as it is written:\u00a0\u201cWhat no eye has seen,\u00a0what no ear has heard,\u00a0and what no human mind has conceived\u201d\u2014the things God has prepared for those who love him\u2014\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28405\">10<\/sup>\u00a0these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28406\">11<\/sup>\u00a0For who knows a person\u2019s thoughts except their own spirit within them? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28407\">12<\/sup>\u00a0What we have received is not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may understand what God has freely given us.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28408\">13<\/sup>\u00a0This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, explaining spiritual realities with Spirit-taught words.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28409\">14<\/sup>\u00a0The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28410\">15<\/sup>\u00a0The person with the Spirit makes judgments about all things, but such a person is not subject to merely human judgments,\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NIV-28411\">16<\/sup>\u00a0for,\u00a0\u201cWho has known the mind of the Lord\u00a0so as to instruct him?\u201d\u00a0But we have the mind of Christ.<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">1 Corinthians 2 (NIV)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p>My work at an Illinois correctional facility provides me the opportunity to play a substantial role in reshaping the lives of adult men (adult being at least 18 years old). These are men who have made decisions under the influence of alcohol, drugs, with\u00a0 criminal thinking and behavior that offends innocent people.<\/p>\n<p>Drug-<span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">using<\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">and<\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">\u00a0drug-<\/span>dealing, burglary, home invasion, robbery, aggravated battery, gang-banging, assault, stabbing people, shooting people, and so on, have defined the lives of the men I work with every day. These men are at our facility for the treatment of their history of alcohol and drug abuse and dependence. While it is a medium security prison populated by non-violent offenders, that only means that they are serving time this time for non-violent offenses; supposedly. Most of the inmates have been stabbed or shot. A significant number of them have shot or stabbed someone. Most of the men have carried firearms with the intent to use them when provoked. What percentage of them would you guess owned firearms legally?<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/hope-deferred-2.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignleft size-full wp-image-36284\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/hope-deferred-2.jpg?resize=399%2C329\" alt=\"\" width=\"399\" height=\"329\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/hope-deferred-2.jpg?w=399&amp;ssl=1 399w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/hope-deferred-2.jpg?resize=300%2C247&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/hope-deferred-2.jpg?resize=250%2C206&amp;ssl=1 250w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 399px) 100vw, 399px\" \/><\/a>My work counseling prisoners has been at least as rewarding as it has been challenging. These men signed up for change through recovery, though the degree to which they are desperate for change varies from man to man. They have families. While many have not considered marriage, most have children with more than one woman. They refer to these women as &#8220;baby mamas.&#8221; Sometimes they still love these women, but more often than not they hope to maintain enough of a relationship with their baby mamas to have relationships with the children they had with them. The men love their kids. They&#8217;d be the first to tell you that they have not been good dads; that they have not been role models to their kids. The problem is that love to them is so damaged and jaded that they are learning what it means to love for the first time in their life. Many of the men had children motivated by love&#8212;to offer love and receive love with some semblance of reciprocity for the very first time. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">The stories of many of their childhoods can be\u00a0so brutal it&#8217;s sickening. So many experienced ritualistic beatings and torture at the hands of their fathers and mothers, stepparents and foster parents; such that gangs, drugs, crime, and prison were inevitable.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">I share this with you because I have a tendency to seek approval from these guys. For many of them it&#8217;s like I am their savior. I get to blow them away with profound insight and wisdom. What comes forth from my mouth is revelation to them, and salvation from a life dominated by terror and fear and guilt and shame; especially for the vast majority of the men who profess that Jesus Christ is their Savior&#8212;for real. The treatment curriculum of course is secular cognitive-behavioral therapy (cognitive: what and how one thinks, behavioral: what one does). Then I come along and attempt to draw transformative life-changing parallels between the cognitive-behavioral curriculum and cognitive-behavioral Scriptural truth, making so much sense of this 2000 year-old material. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">I&#8217;ve got to tell you, it is awesome! So many of these guys are like sponges soaking it all in as relevant and applicable to their recovery one day at a time. In their cell, they live in what is essentially a small bathroom with another man. Rarely do they even have the privacy to use the toilet without making special provisions at only very specific times when privacy is possible. You&#8217;d think that the planets have to align for this to happen. Yet you ask the man who is at peace in his relationship with Christ how he is doing and he responds, &#8220;Great!&#8221; And he&#8217;s not kidding. The case usually, I have discovered, is that the man didn&#8217;t find God in prison. He returned to God in prison. And he can&#8217;t wait to thank me and sing my praises for the role I played in his enlightened new life. Sometimes he will tell all 100 men on the hall how he has the best counselor on the unit; sometimes he&#8217;ll say that I am the best counselor at the prison! Wow, am I something!<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">Now I absolutely believe the truth of First Corinthians Chapter 2. I believe that Jesus Christ dwells in my body and mind as the temple of His Spirit. There is profound insight and wisdom and revelation in this truth, and that I have been called to give it away to the men at the prison, to my family and friends, and to you if you&#8217;d like. The problem is that it can goes to my head. I say out loud that all of the credit and the glory goes to God but the truth is that I do enjoy the approval and recognition that comes my way. Some say that it is alright to feel good about doing good things, but it can go way beyond that in my head. Truth be told, I like feeling superior. <\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">I believe this has much to do with what Paul writes when he writes about boasting and the need to be humbled by the circumstances that God permitted for him to experience because he apparently struggled to humble himself. When I go to that place of pride, I shouldn&#8217;t be surprised then when I am stuck in the flesh with a thorn. There are times when the thorn hurts real bad, and at times is unbearable. Trusting in myself avails nothing. It is then that am I humbled, in desperate need of my Savior&#8217;s grace. <\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">Humble yourselves, therefore, under God\u2019s mighty hand, that <em>he<\/em> may lift you up in due time.\u00a0Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">1 Peter 5:6-7 (NIV)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">Please note that God permitting or allowing circumstances to occur means that life happens under the umbrella of God&#8217;s sovereignty. I am <em>not<\/em> in control; God is. But that does not mean that He is orchestrating the events of my life. I live in an evil selfish world. Included in that is the selfishness in me that can prove to be evil. I reap what I sow in the way I live with the decisions that I make. And then there is the unpredictability of life in the world. Since God is sovereign and in authority, it is imperative that I put my trust in Him to be God in my life and in the world. I am under the authority of law and the enforcement of it. I am protected by firefighters and military, and have access to healthcare and repair people. I am supplied by utility companies and food and clothing vendors. However, these directors, protectors, supporters, and providers in my life are not following me around or intruding into my life and personal space until I either invite them into my circumstances or subject myself to the need for their intervention. They do not seek to control me and provoke my every thought and direct my every\u00a0step, although should I call out to them or should a need arise for them to get involved, they could certainly do that. \u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #c5c7ad; font-family: 'Book Antiqua', Palatino; font-size: 18pt;\">When the answer is &#8220;No&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">So to keep me from becoming proud, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger from Satan to torment me and keep me from becoming proud.\u00a0Three different times I begged the Lord to take it away.\u00a0Each time he said,\u00a0\u201cMy grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.\u201d\u00a0So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.\u00a0That\u2019s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">2 Corinthians 12:7-10 (NLT)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p>What needs to be addressed is that our brother Paul is under attack from his spiritual enemy and it has invaded the circumstances of his life. What the matter was that Paul struggled with I don&#8217;t know. Some have said it was his failing eyesight. Perhaps, but I like to assume that when Jesus healed Paul&#8217;s blindness at the outset of his ministry that the healing was sustainable. I tend to consider Paul&#8217;s struggles in the context of his life to not be too unlike my struggles in the context of my life; that keep me grounded and might have influence in the growing of my character. It is possible, however, that Paul so lived in the Spirit reality of the new age of grace that it became difficult to absorb the persecutions of the former age that at times imprisoned him. (Read <a title=\"Open &quot;New Age Living (and oh by the way your feet smell)&quot;\" href=\"http:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/believe\/new-age-living-and-oh-by-the-way-your-feet-smell\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">New Age Living&#8230;<\/a> for the fuller meaning of this sentence.)<\/p>\n<p>What we do know is that Paul sought God on at least three occasions pleading that He take away that which had gotten under his skin. Yes or no: did God take away Paul\u2019s problem the first time he begged Him to take it away? Yes or no: did God remove the problem the second time he begged Him to remove it? Yes or no: did God remove the problem the third time Paul pleaded with Him to take it away? If you answered \u201cno\u201d to the first two times Paul asked you are correct. If you answered \u201cno\u201d to the third time Paul begged God to remove the problem, again you are correct. Instead Jesus Christ told Paul &#8220;My grave is sufficient&#8221; and\u00a0&#8220;my strength is\u00a0<span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">perfected in your weakness.&#8221; His grace is sufficient for what in this context? For Paul&#8217;s problem, that&#8217;s what. This is huge if I am going to trust compassionate sovereign God to be all that He is for and in me when I cannot seem to shake that thing that really seems to be putting my recovery at risk.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Paul did perceive the world and time he lived in much different than I have until recently. He understood the age of grace as an eternal time of glory and heavenly citizenship. He looked at people from this perspective as well as his relationship with God. Having fallen short of God&#8217;s glory in the flesh, <em>that <\/em>man (sinful man) had to die and died with Christ. The sinful man was crucified in the body and the sin condemned in the soul of Jesus. The new creation is man resurrected into the new age of grace and new citizenship. Even Paul&#8217;s relationship with Christ was no longer from a place and time of instant and temporary gratification but from a place of contented satisfaction from a far more glorious disposition and attitude.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">If we are \u201cout of our mind,\u201d as some say, it is for God; if we are in our right mind, it is for you.\u00a0For Christ\u2019s love compels us, because we are convinced that one died for all, and therefore all died.\u00a0And he died for all, that those who live should no longer live for themselves but for him who died for them and was raised again.\u00a0So from now on we regard no one from a worldly point of view. Though we once regarded Christ in this way, we do so no longer.\u00a0Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come:\u00a0The old has gone, the new is here!<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">2 Corinthians 5:13-17 (NIV)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">Paul was humbled by his difficulties. He perceived that his difficulties were perpetrated by the devil. Whether it was Satan or whether it was evil in his world that was perpetrated by demonic forces, Paul was under oppressive attack from his spiritual adversary. He likely heard or read that Jesus said, &#8220;My yoke is easy and My burden is light&#8221;, and thought, &#8220;Come on Lord, how much of this am I supposed to endure? It&#8217;s too hard!&#8221; Or, perhaps Paul was under intense conviction that he lost focus on who he was in the age and time of grace and glory, persuaded at times by his earthly and spiritual enemies that the task was too heavy a burden to endure.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #90d6b2; font-family: Book Antiqua, Palatino; font-size: 18pt;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/01-1.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-full wp-image-47052\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/01-1.jpg?resize=380%2C348\" alt=\"\" width=\"380\" height=\"348\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/01-1.jpg?w=380&amp;ssl=1 380w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/01-1.jpg?resize=300%2C275&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2013\/09\/01-1.jpg?resize=250%2C229&amp;ssl=1 250w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 380px) 100vw, 380px\" \/><\/a><span style=\"color: #c5c7ad;\">Fall from &#8220;Grace&#8221;?<\/span><br \/>\n<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #b7c5c7;\"><em>\u201cThe death of Jesus was qualitatively different from any other death. The physical pain was nothing compared to the spiritual experiences of cosmic abandonment&#8230;\u00a0On the cross he went beyond even the worst human suffering and experienced cosmic rejection and pain that exceeds ours as infinitely as his knowledge and power excels ours. In his death, God suffers in love, identifying with the abandoned and godforsaken.&#8221; <\/em><span style=\"color: #909c9e;\">&#8212;Timothy Keller, The Reason for God<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-24063\"><\/sup><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-24063\">36<\/sup>\u00a0Then Jesus went with them to the olive grove called Gethsemane, and he said,\u00a0\u201cSit here while I go over there to pray.\u201d\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-24064\">37<\/sup>He took Peter and Zebedee\u2019s two sons, James and John, and he became anguished and distressed.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-24065\">38<\/sup>\u00a0He told them,\u00a0\u201cMy soul is crushed with grief to the point of death. Stay here and keep watch with me.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-24066\">39<\/sup>\u00a0He went on a little farther and bowed with his face to the ground, praying,\u00a0\u201cMy Father! If it is possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.\u201d\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-24067\">40<\/sup>\u00a0Then he returned to the disciples and found them asleep. He said to Peter,\u00a0\u201cCouldn\u2019t you watch with me even one hour?\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-24068\">41<\/sup>Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak!\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-24069\">42<\/sup>\u00a0Then Jesus left them a second time and prayed,\u00a0\u201cMy Father! If this cup cannot be taken away\u00a0unless I drink it, your will be done.\u201d\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-24070\">43<\/sup>\u00a0When he returned to them again, he found them sleeping, for they couldn\u2019t keep their eyes open.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-24071\">44<\/sup>\u00a0So he went to pray a third time, saying the same things again.\u00a0Matthew 26: 36-44 (NLT)<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">41<\/sup>\u00a0He walked away, about a stone\u2019s throw, and knelt down and prayed,\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-25873\">42<\/sup>\u00a0\u201cFather, if you are willing, please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.\u201d\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-25874\">43<\/sup>\u00a0Then an angel from heaven appeared and strengthened him.\u00a0<sup id=\"en-NLT-25875\">44<\/sup>\u00a0He prayed more fervently, and he was in such agony of spirit that his sweat fell to the ground like great drops of blood.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">Luke 22: 41-44 (NLT)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p>Jesus Christ, while fully human in the likeness of sinful flesh (Romans 8:3), prayed at least three times saying the same thing, asking God to remove the cup of his suffering and that which he was about to suffer. Three times God said no. Jesus had to know that it was the will of God that he suffer and die as the price for the sin of mankind. He was equally involved as God developing the plan from the beginning of it all. He understood his questioning of the perfect plan was of the devil when he said to Peter, &#8220;Get behind me Satan&#8221;, when Peter offered himself as a substitute for what Jesus had to suffer.\u00a0Jesus told Peter that he had no idea what he was suggesting.<\/p>\n<p>Yet still again as a man, imperfect in the flesh, Jesus appears to have sought emphatically to explore deviating from their perfect plan. Even when the angel appeared to comfort or perhaps rescue Jesus, he prayed with even greater intensity until his skin, so stressed under the weight of this psychological torture, broke open and began to bleed.<\/p>\n<p>Jesus needed to know that God&#8217;s grace was sufficient and that God&#8217;s strength was perfected in his body and spirit as he carried the weight of our sin up to a hill, where he paid the ultimate price. God&#8217;s grace is sufficient for me because of what Jesus did. At some point as Jesus hung on that cross, my sin so permeated through the body, mind, heart, and soul of Jesus that he was separated from grace. Did I just say that? Jesus, Son of God, was separated from grace&#8212;fell from grace?<br \/>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/67-mustange-junk-yard-54.jpg\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-full wp-image-28743\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/67-mustange-junk-yard-54.jpg?resize=345%2C321\" alt=\"67-mustange-junk-yard (5)\" width=\"345\" height=\"321\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/67-mustange-junk-yard-54.jpg?w=345&amp;ssl=1 345w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/67-mustange-junk-yard-54.jpg?resize=300%2C279&amp;ssl=1 300w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/05\/67-mustange-junk-yard-54.jpg?resize=250%2C233&amp;ssl=1 250w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 345px) 100vw, 345px\" \/><\/a><br \/>\n<span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">At about three o\u2019clock, Jesus called out with a loud voice,\u00a0<em>\u201cEli, Eli,\u00a0lema sabachthani?\u201d<\/em>\u00a0which means\u00a0\u201cMy God, my God, why have you abandoned me?\u201d<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">Matthew 27:46 (NLT)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">Buried and ultimately condemned with my sin, Jesus walked away from fellowship with God, stepping outside of God&#8217;s grace, where the sin of the world and all mankind will remain for eternity. It is stunning to me that Jesus fell from grace but today sits at the throne of grace, offering it freely, available and accessible to you and to me.\u00a0\u00a0By the grace of God to you and to me, God gave up his Son. Had Jesus not been forsaken in my sin from grace, I would not experience redemption from disgrace into grace.\u00a0<\/span>Because of the sacrifice of Jesus, I can know as Paul did, the sufficiency of grace in relationship with God through Jesus Christ.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast\u00a0<em>our<\/em>\u00a0confession.\u00a0<sup>15\u00a0<\/sup>For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all\u00a0points\u00a0tempted as\u00a0we are, yet\u00a0without sin.\u00a0<sup>16\u00a0<\/sup>Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need<\/span>.\u00a0<span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">Hebrews 4:14-16 (NKJV)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #c5c7ad; font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'Book Antiqua', Palatino;\">Confessing Weakness and Need<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">My confession isn&#8217;t only my sin, but the confession of what I am feeling, haunted by, struggling with, and every obstacle challenging me on a daily basis. As I wrote earlier, I am challenged by my approval-seeking ego. You can read through the articles in FREEdom from MEdom and perhaps think of me as someone who has it together, pursuing God with all my heart as I come into insightful revelation of what God might be trying to communicate to you through my words, but I seek approval from a place of insecurity. From the insufficiency in my spirit and character I crave recognition. When I am criticized, especially harshly, I crumble inside.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\"><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">I have lost control. I cannot adequately manage. I am weak.\u00a0<\/span>I need to humble myself. I need to know that I am better off\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">with Jesus\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">in the flimsy boat that is the goings on in my life, even when the wind and waves are crashing from all sides, and the thunder is loud, and my life is taking on water, than I am on <\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">the shore without Him.\u00a0<\/span><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">I need God&#8217;s grace to be sufficient for me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">4<\/sup> Always be full of joy in the Lord. I say it again\u2014rejoice! <sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">5<\/sup> Let everyone see that you are considerate in all you do. Remember, the Lord is coming soon.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">6<\/sup> Don\u2019t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. <sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">7<\/sup> Then you will experience God\u2019s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">8<\/sup> And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. <sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">9<\/sup> Keep putting into practice all you learned and received from me\u2014everything you heard from me and saw me doing. Then the God of peace will be with you.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\"><sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">10<\/sup> How I praise the Lord that you are concerned about me again. I know you have always been concerned for me, but you didn\u2019t have the chance to help me. <sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">11<\/sup> Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. <sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">12<\/sup> I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. <sup id=\"en-NLT-25872\">13<\/sup> For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">Philippians 4:4-13 (NLT)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">I need to believe that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me as I trust Him to protect me with a heart and mind, not of anxiety but of peace, celebrating my relationship with Him in recovery from my addiction to me. I need to think and meditate on this truth and not get bogged down in all of life&#8217;s things that stall my recovery and stunt my growth. I must be willing to go through the things in life that get under my skin as I live and breathe and move in a world and an age that is evil, certain of the hope of a new life in a new age as I forge ahead.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"line-height: 24px;\">God is building character in me through the struggle that is my life. He continues to reform and reshape me as I give myself to Him, surrendering my will to Him from a disposition of meekness. While I don&#8217;t <em>feel<\/em> joy so much as I experience trouble in my life, I do know that my spirit is joyful understanding who God is, what Jesus did and continues to do in my life, and that He is in the boat with me, though occasionally He might take me out once in awhile for a walk on the water. \u00a0My weakness and all that goes with it is an opportunity to be made perfect in His strength.<\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">Dear brothers and sisters,\u00a0when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy.\u00a0For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow.\u00a0So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.\u00a0If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking.<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">James 1:2-5 (NLT)<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"color: #c5c7ad; font-family: 'Book Antiqua', Palatino; font-size: 14pt;\">Post Script<\/span><\/p>\n<p>Incarcerated men who can honestly say from their heart that they&#8217;ve been blessed experience God&#8217;s sufficient grace. They have committed crimes and are in recovery from addiction to drugs as well as their addiction to approval and acceptance. Many are learning to love for the first time in their lives, so to be loved by Jesus Christ and in turn love their fellow inmate with Christ-like love is a joyous experience making prison life, not only bearable but truly a blessing. They have an arduous journey ahead in their recovery, especially when they leave for the other side of the gate and into a world where most of everyone they know is not in recovery and primed to sabotage theirs. For me, as proud a man as I am, this is humbling. The fact that I get to have a part in challenging these guys to radically challenge their irrational thinking about how to solve problems via alcohol, drugs, and crime through recovery into the new life of sufficient grace is an awesome privilege.<\/p>\n<p>These men have learned that they aren&#8217;t as strong and tough as they thought they were and that they are strong in their weakness as God&#8217;s perfect plan is revealed to them and perfected in them. Paul is saying that these guys can delight in their weakness, that they are powerless and that the obvious inability to manage their lives is an opportunity to experience joy as they put their faith in the certainty of God&#8217;s goodness, whatever they&#8217;re going through. I know of so many seeking wisdom and that God is granting them favor. Listening to the men articulate their faith in the midst of their circumstances is raw and real and refreshing. It hardly sounds or feels religious. The countenance on the faces of those living in right relationship with Christ is sincere, peaceful, and inviting. You wouldn&#8217;t know that they are in prison for heinous crimes. If you could see these guys in this light you would welcome them into your town; you would invite them into your church and embrace them, not out of pity, but out of respect and appreciation for the work they are doing for authentic recovery. Black, Caucasian, Hispanic, Asian, Arab&#8230; it wouldn&#8217;t matter. The men experiencing new life in Christ are special and it is transparent in how they carry themselves.<\/p>\n<p>There are a lot of shows on television portraying men who are locked up in the corrections system as angry, violent, insane, and capable of anything. They are. The beauty of it is them who recognize that they are selfish and living according the irrational belief of entitlement; that they return to God through relationship with Jesus, and live each day according to the reality of belief that will revolutionize their life: that reality being the sufficiency of God&#8217;s mercy and grace. For many of these guys they will walk on water with Jesus, doing something extraordinary as they are empowered by God to live a blessed abundant life.<\/p>\n<p>In the morning I will walk on the unit and ask the man who has embraced recovery in relationship with Jesus, &#8220;How are you doing today?&#8221; and he will respond, &#8220;Great&#8221; or &#8220;Grateful.&#8221; Some will say something like, &#8220;Happier then I&#8217;ve ever been&#8221; and &#8220;I finally got my life back;&#8221; free from the bondage of their addiction. These men will say this from prison and mean it with all of their heart. Please pray for them, as well as for those wrestling with the invitation to enter into the age of grace, that they may be persuading to come in and experience the love of family like never before.<\/p>\n<p style=\"padding-left: 30px;\"><span style=\"color: #a1c4a4;\"><span style=\"color: #b0bfbe;\">God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through Him.<\/span> <span style=\"color: #8d9998;\">John 3:17<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>by Steven Gledhill for FREEdom from MEdom Project In order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.\u00a0Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/believe\/under-my-skin-when-the-answer-is-no\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[4],"tags":[201,204,202,203,205,206,200,199],"class_list":["post-5947","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-believe","tag-conceited","tag-flesh","tag-struggle","tag-thorn","tag-thorn-in-my-flesh","tag-thorn-of-the-flesh","tag-unanswered-prayer","tag-when-god-says-no"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_likes_enabled":false,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5947","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5947"}],"version-history":[{"count":139,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5947\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":53381,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5947\/revisions\/53381"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5947"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5947"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.freedomfrommedom.com\/wp3\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5947"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}